I’m sitting at the kitchen table at 6:26 in the morning. If today had been a work day, I’d be late. However, it’s Saturday morning, I’ve been awake off and on throughout the night, and I’m recovering from surgery. …Not morning as usual.
Tuesday was the day I had rotator cuff surgery on my right shoulder, plus an additional procedure on my left hand. Since then, my nights and days have blended together to the point I’m rarely sure what day it is, much less the time. I tend to want to sleep when others are awake, and wake up when there’s not even a decent infomercial on TV.
This morning I woke up and realized I needed to text someone about an important issue. Yet, when I looked at my phone it was 5 a.m.
I nodded off.
Then, thinking enough time had passed in order to avoid an awkwardly-early communication, I picked up my phone once again… 5:12 a.m.
Seriously, this was becoming frustrating! My sickness, my brokenness, my wounds, my recovery has twisted and distorted my understanding of day and night, of time itself!
At 6:15, I thought of sin.
In Mark 2:17 Jesus said: “They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.”
Then, I thought of how often our spiritual brokenness must mess with our ability to truly appreciate what time it actually is.
In the above verse, Jesus made sin analogous to being sick. As the Great Physician, He can diagnose the problem and provide the remedy. But once the surgery has taken place, and even though we are in recovery, do we not still have difficulty telling the time?
We may know Christmas is around the corner, but sometimes our personal aches and pains negatively affect our preparing for the big day. Even worse, our tendency to rest improperly, or too much, may cause us to miss an opportunity to communicate something eternally important.
It’s now 7:20. My left thumb is tired, and so am I. I’m going back to bed…I think.
And I’ve still got those cursed hiccups!
3 responses to “Losing Track of Time”
My 2 cents after two shoulder surgeries and a a lost job result…when in pain and lean times I listed toward insignificance easily. God drove me toward insight and depth through His Word and a massive amount of reflection.. SO, praying for you in what God has for you through this present fire.
I just want to make sure… You understood my point, right? I read it to my wife and her eyes got glassy. Of course, she doesn’t do coffee, so she WAS at a disadvantage.
Let me back up here…Yes, I got it but quite sure I don’t feel the depth as you are living out the spiritual principal in a physical way right now. I woke up at 3:14 this morning for a couple of minutes. I only know you through your blog but you came to mind so I prayed for you. My intent is to encourage you…Getting coffee now. keep the insights coming, thanks